Tag: heartmom
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Let Love Meet Us Here Too.
Be Okay by Lauren Daigle I felt my phone buzz as I rode in the passenger seat of Alex’s grey Subaru Impreza. We were driving home from a weekend in Iowa with William’s Grandma Christi, Grandpa Karl, Uncle Jer, Auntie Claire, and cousins Shepherd and new baby, Truett William. I was feeling empty, as I…
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Gratitude and Grief
Sports by Viagra Boys I sat out on the front step alone as I listened to our quiet neighborhood. Squirrels and distant dogs barking. I noticed the sun shining and thought to myself, “how is that even possible?” How was it possible that the sun was shining when Alex and I witnessed our three-month-old son’s…
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The Change We Got.
A Change is Gonna Come performed by Otis Redding, Written by Sam Cooke When Alex and I got married, my sister-in-law Claire planned me a bridal shower. She hung pictures of Alex and I up, ordered balloons and secretly sent Alex questions and printed them out for the center of the tables. One of the…
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He Did and We Will.
Rise Up by Andra Day William had just gotten transferred to an adult-sized hospital bed so Alex and I could lay on either side of him before, during and after he was taken off of the support machines keeping him alive. He had four tubes called “cannulas” coming out of his abdomen that were his…
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We Burned.
Vega by Ed Sheeran Alex and I sat outside of William’s room, while the world was tilting every way but level on its axis. We watched as EMTs swirled around our new born son’s tiny warmer basinet and as each of our faces were wet with silent tears, I could hear Alex’s and feel my…
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This is my “Next Right Thing.”
“We Can Do Hard Things” by Tish Melton Deep breaths. Deeeeepppp breaths, Steph. Okay, here we go. When you listen to Glennon Doyle’s podcast “We Can Do Hard Things,” the first thing you’ll hear is a snippet of the song her daughter wrote. Then, whatever topic they’ve decided to discuss, you’ll walk through with Glennon,…
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